It only seems appropriate that the title should fit my current mood. My latest muse, whom I have kept in contact with for a while now, has gone and done something that I should be happy in his favor but really feel betrayed in some sort of way. Wondering as to why I think so? Because of his choice of a new girlfriend, whom I feel is not in the range of what he looks for in a girlfriend. Not that she isn't nice and all; for I had the pleasure of knowing her for a while prior to my friend "supposedly" going out with said woman. It's just the notion of her not meeting his needs of having someone being there for him not for the physical part of a relationship but also for the emotional and mental part of it as well.
Keep in mind, I have confided my feeligs of this union only to his best friend, whom I'll call Dr. Frasier, for his friend is my own personal therapist (and I have to give him credit for it too. Heis such a good friend too). And Frasier has told me, after asking if I seemed to be the 'jealous' ex like Julia Roberts' character in "My Best Friend's Wedding"--only problem would be that Roberts was the best friend and not an ex grilfriend-- that, and I quote, "You're looking out for him". With that said, I should move on and play it to see if this relationship should last. I feel, in my gut (and normally I don't have nghtmares of a little girl calling out for me right before I end up on a car accident in the nightmare) that it will not last, although it nghtmares last...who knows?
So, my fellow readers of this blog, do I sound like
an ex that'll do everything to make him miserable??? Sadly, I am one of the few people that is very laidback and not strict with guys when it comes to relationships...
"The mind may be the mind that seeks logic, but it is the heart that seeks love."- anomonyus
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